You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I’ve learned that, when you’re depressed, you become very spontaneous because your emotions trick you.
It makes you stupid. It makes you do crazy things. You don’t have a hold of yourself. You’re very angry, sad, hurt, and suicidal.
It makes you regret. You feel sorry, but not-quite. You know for yourself that you don’t want to act in a certain manner, but find yourself doing so.
Basically, I feel hopeless.
I asked myself on what I should do.
I can’t remain like this, for long. I don’t want to.
This rational part of me told me to:
“Admit your mistake, own up your stupidity, declare your fault, and acknowledge the weakness you’ve just revealed yourself to.”
You’re hurt. Show them that you are.
You think you’re sorry for what you’ve done. Tell that person how you feel, despite the hesitation.
You’re not okay. Don’t act or say otherwise.
It’s because by faking reality, by not admitting these things, you don’t show strength, rather you make yourself more inferior.”
Anyway, due to my current emotional state, I started a diary.
Typing away whatever I have in mind, my fears, worries, and whatever issues I have as of the moment, is a remedy. It does help, a bit. Although it’ll take more than that, and a little while, to fix me completely.
To myself:
You’ve gone a long way and things aren’t getting easier.
You need your self-esteem back.
You need your life back.
What will happen next, only Allah knows. Just hope you’ll be able to survive it.
